the truth

Sometimes, I find homework time to be oddly comforting.

I CAN BREATHE THROUGH MY NOSE.

its been a while D:

hair

i’m planning on

dying my hair (light brown)
letting it grow

the city

i love being in the city. i love walking to a place filled with people who are strangers to me. i love grocery shopping for myself. i love the idea of being independent.

this is why i’m kind of excited to be in college.

man. i’m going to miss home so much though.

happpynesss:

HOME :)

paranoia: lol everyone thinks you're boring and ugly haha someones talking about you right now omg your friends don't even like you that much they just pretend because they don't wanna sound mean but really you bore them and are so awkward no one can even bear to talk to you and everyone thinks you're weird because you actually are haha you're gonna die alone.

i don’t know why, but i feel like turning 16 -> 17 is a huge jump.

I can’t believe I’m 17. Boo. I’m an old person.

to do list

UCLA supplement
FAFSA
CSS Profile
Get my license before fourth quarter so I can get Mcdonalds during lunch LOL.
get my shit together.

Sometimes I miss having a boyfriend. When I do, I want one better than him. I want to hang out with him more. Be with him more. Talk to him more. Not those bullshit “prince charmings” that girls want that don’t even exist. But my ex was like the exact opposite. He cared for me, but he didn’t do shit. always me asking him out on a date. Always me deciding what to do where to go. he was a pussy as a boyfriend. That fucking girl that flirted with you called me a bitch on facebook, and you didn’t even defend me. She asked you if you were mad, you should’ve said yes. fuck that. fuck you for not defending me. fuck you for not being there for me. fuuuuuuuuuuuck.

I need to find a better guy. Or accept my independence.

Sometimes I’m happy that I’m single, other times I’m not ._.

I find it weird thinking about making out & other stuff I have done with my ex.

I find it weird calling him my ex.

Do I miss him?

I don’t know. I need a rebound. It’s been three months though, so I don’t even think it’s considered a rebound anymore.